I had been kicked, crushed and disarrayed Fractions of my life in shambles. Wanting to undwindle the time When letting go was beyond imagination. I screamed my lungs out When I found your dual identity Hopeful as it may seem It tore my irrevocable trust. I had not foreseen this Nor had I thought about it With a tiny sparkle of light I found my way to that darkened path. ....................(breathing for momentum) I saw you and unmistakingly It was not me with you. ME. I. What you so called significant other. Significant...what? Fuck you! That female dog haunted my nights My days that turned into years I was possessed with revenge I could not get over it I wanted to kill.... Both. I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep. I couldn't look at my face in the mirror For fear of seeing them in my own reflection I cried, I screamed I wanted to die. For weeks I did not eat, but just water. While friends prayed, YOU.. YOU! How dare you!? 'have the audacity to call to let me know you still care..?..! You stupid son of a *bitch!!! Now it rained on you Realized I was important Thought of that son that made you smile Missed the voice that called you dad... A family is all that was. Now you want it all back Back to assume all that was. As simple words that may convey "I'm sorry, I messed up I want you back. What??! Do you think It's just that simple "I want you, I'm sorry Let's fuck and be merry...!? LIES LIES LIES!!! What's to believe in I can't even differentiate a lie from the truth When you start to open your mouth Better yet close it. ....................... It's been two(2) years It's not a no-go situation He has not given up...'told him to do just that Why he stays, when nothing's left..? Respect, trust, love...where did they all go? Toilet. .... Now he's back I should be ..... happy..? I don't know. Where is that female dog now...? The answer lies in the title.